• Leonard Bagdanov

Waiting...



A friend gave me a new journal and it came at just the right time. I was on the last page of the one I had and a blank one I have is in the RV (you know, the one in the shop). Even more timely since she had the cover themed around Wholly Rollin and our 2020 adventure. If you’ve been following so far you know that the “adventure” has taken a turn of its own - not what we planned but an adventure none-the-less. And as I write this, as I began journaling in this new journal it struck me that we are experiencing an adventure, an adventure in waiting. Again, not what we expected and if I’m honest, not our first choice.


In this waiting, we’ve realized that launching (or failure to launch), transition and change have been hard. All the new, all the old, life as we knew it, house, dog, neighborhood, friends has brought a sense of loss. So there has been some grieving that needs to be acknowledged along with the fear and trepidation that adventures can bring along with the “we don’t know what we don’t know”. This runs the gamut , from which route will be best to when we stop what do we plug in first, turn on next and have we done it all correctly? (and that’s all after I’ve backed up a 34 foot long RV). And those were thoughts way before I clipped the tree and damaged the RV which delayed all of the above as we wait for it to be repaired - the adventure!


Now add current events - COVID! How does that factor in to the waiting, the emotions, the planning? The Lord took me to Psalms.


“Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.” Psalm 27:14


“In the morning, Lord, you hear my voice; in the morning I lay my requests before you and wait expectantly.” Psalm 5:3


“We wait in hope for the Lord; He is our help and our shield.” Psalm 33:20


And I am reminded that waiting is part of His plan for us as an exercise in faith and trust and a time to see His faithfulness and provision - many times in ways we don’t expect. But waiting is hard! Just like launching and transitioning but even in that Psalm 27:1 is still true:


“The Lord is my light and my salvation— whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life— of whom shall I be afraid?”


So we wait because He can be trusted, He is good and He knows what’s best for us, knows best on how to help execute our plan as He grows us and draws us to Himself - in the waiting. And yes - there’s adventure even in that.

See you on the road…


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